Saturday, January 28, 2017

Finding Myself

The past few weeks, months, days(not in that order), have been a struggle finding my rhythm. Plagued with inconsistency and trouble finding zen. I've found myself making excuses more often than not. It feels as if I'm blaming work, but I wonder if that's what it is. The more I think about it, the more I realize my mind has won this battle. How do I overcome?

Truth is, I'm not too sure. I feel stuck in the valley, climbing a never ending mountain. The top seems so far away, and I've been here before. Let me just say, I'm not in a bad spot, but I'm not where I want to be. Running means so much to me and is crucial to my well being. It's therapeutic, it is very spiritual and quite frankly, it's fun. Those who run, no matter the distance, push their minds and bodies through painful situations and consistently return over and over again.

I want to experience the high, the zen, the complete peaceful mindset. In order to reach any sort of spiritual transformation, I have to travel through the valley, up the hill and that in its own right is going to hurt. Pain needs to be embraced and respected. Understanding that the journey is going to have mountains and valleys is going to help propel me to the top. Move forward, but don't forget to stop and enjoy the sights, listen to the flowing water of the river. All the answers are right there for the taking, I just need to dig deep and find the strength within. I can, and I will find myself. I know where I want to be, I know my true potential, I know it's going to be hard work, but one foot in front of the other and I will overcome.